The other night I had to call the ambulance to have my nMother taken to the hospital. She had been rather off all week but Sunday she was really off her nut. I simply did not want her dying on my watch (like I need more stress and bad nerves) so I called for an ambulance. Turned out that she was a pretty sick littleN.
So why write here? I am having the most difficult time even dealing with her being sick. If she was sick when I was growing up you had to step it up even more to look after her. (After all....no one ever could get as sick as her) Yet wen my brothers or I was sick she would be absoultely disgusted and treat you with such disdain.
My biggest HURT that I am dealing with is the way she treated my father as he lay sick and dying. Unable to talk or move and in such a great deal of pain he was on a morphine pump she would still yell and swear at him and literally shove him around in that bed. He would scream out in pain. I had to be there or my hubby did to make sure he was safe. With nurses and doctors in and out she was the ever loving wife and after they left she would be back to her narcissistic bitch self. I ended up putting him in the hospital to keep him safe. That is where he finally died.
My problems are these today......She is her demanding self thinking that she comes first and is literally bossing everyone around. I get disgusted and sick just looking at her. I am the only one to take care of her. There is no one else so how the hell can I deal with this once she is back home out of the hospital????
