What he did/does is wrong. Very wrong!
In my mind I know he is a loser. I know he doesn't/didn't respect me. He certainly does not respect his wife or his family. I often wonder why she stays..... What should concern me more however is WHY, WHY, WHY do I still think of him and love him????
I know why (only a small part) I was with him. I was very broken. I spent my teen (16+) years looking for love in all the wrong places. In reality when I look back at who I was with I am lucky really to be alive. I was with some bad ass guys. At least one of them I was well warned from a friend to have nothing to do with him. He was a pretty heavy drug addict. Hmmmmm....that was a theme. I was with a couple of druggies and I never did drugs. I was with another loser who used me for sex so much so that my skin crawls when I think of him.
