Larry and Stephanie

I have so much wanted to tell you what really happened all those years ago. (has it really been 30 years).  The memory haunts me to this day.  You were my first love, you were my true love from the very first kiss. My mother was very jealous of us and our relationship.  She was very jealous of the relationship I shared with your sister.  I really don't think she had a best friend. I will bet my life she did not have a relationship with a man like I had with you. The day she found our love letters while she snooped through my room really pissed her off.  She went and met me as I was walking home from work and literally grabbed me by my hair and yanked me like that all the way home from downtown. (fu*king b*tch) She made me (and I do feel so horribly bad to this day) break up with you.  Do you remember me crying uncontrollably? I remember when I told you we had to break up that you hit your hand on the plow in your front yard and broke your hand.  I felt even worse after that.  But the memory that haunts me most Larry is the one I could never tell you or your sister.  I was pregnant with our child and was made to go to the doctor to arrange for an abortion. You know I was so horribly abused and broken when I found Steph and you that I thought every family was like mine.  I soooooo loved being around your family and you guys because I could not believe that a family really could love each other and not beat the crap out of their kids or tell their kids on a daily basis just what a fat, stupid loser that you are.  I remember your mom and dad welcoming me into your family and how good it felt to be there. I remember when they introduced me to one of their friends and they said this is !@#$ and we borrow her to be with us.  Do you remember the time they let us have free reign in the attic and paint whatever we wanted on the walls? What about the time we all did string art with the nails and thread and they actually hung our finished work up so proudly for any one who enetered the enclosed porch to see?